This week started out pretty hard. I have been discouraged, feel let down. I basically felt like my legs had been kicked out from under me. So what did I do? I kept on giving. I still feel shaken. I am still confused. But my joy, that joy I have in knowing that God is there and everything will be okay, is still there. I have been thinking about joy and it reminds me of the sunshine. The sun is always there. On a cloudless day the warmth shines down on you. But on a cloudy, rainy day the sun is still there. I may not feel the warmth. I may not see the golden rays. This is what I choose to remember when it feels like joy is gone. It really isn't...just hiding behind a rain cloud.
Day 10-Our family is friends with a couple that has been out of work and underemployed for a long time. They have been squeaking by with the necessities. My husband and I decided to give them a card with some gift cards. We wanted to give them an opportunity to have some fun. The best thing? God had even bigger plans for blessing them through our gift. It makes me smile to know that God had these "extra" blessings in store when we listened to his whisper.
Day 11-I gave to a homeless man who was hungry
Day 12-I stopped at a gas station on the way home tonight and paid for someone's gas. It was funny because the cashier was joking that he would take the money. I just said, whatever you want to do. That money is for whoever you think needs it. A friend of mine pondered..."what if people don't give the money to the next person if you aren't there?" My response was that God knows what is needed. Even if someone doesn't pass it on like I request, maybe that person is the one who needs the love. Maybe they are cynical...this might change their heart. I just give and let God take care of the details.
Day 13-Stopped in the morning and paid for someone's smoothie at Jamba Juice. The girl so cute and upbeat. She looked like she was really going to enjoy giving a smootie away:)
Day 14-Paid for someone's coffee and paid the tip for the barista. The guy was so cool! He was totally on board and even asked me if I had ever done this before. I told him I was doing one thing a day...and said he would pass it on and thought it was such a great idea.
Day 15-Ok, so I am not perfect. I didn't do anything intentional today. I am sure I was nice to someone...but I got caught up in the day and totally forgot to do anything.
Day16-I went to IHOP and paid for someone's breakfast. The restaurant was still completely empty, so I told the waitress all about it. She was excited and as I walked out to the car I saw her run up to another worker and excitedly tell what had happened. Such fun!
Day 17-Yep, still not perfect...actually quite flawed. Good thing I am loved for who God is...not for what I do. I have found that being distracted definitely adds a level of toughness to this project. It makes me realize some things about myself. When I am my normal happy self, it is easy to do good things. It is easy for me to talk to God. When I feel bad I still talk to God...but it mostly revolves around what I am feeling at that time. Not the big picture.